Randomness Over Night

How I wish I'm still in US being a Vandy-Engineering-Nerd+Cool. It's one of the best moment in my life. I just can't get over it. I miss going to Wal-Mart at 2am and watching movie through the big flat screen TV in a living room cramped with people. How I wish everyone is still there so that I don't feel working life is taking my friends away. After all, we don't need to be an academic superstar or whatever, we just need to live our life and everything will look just fine. How I wish when I sign in to the YM, everyone is there and not just me alone and we can chat with anyone we want to. How I wish to go to rec center everyday, playing indoor soccer until it closed, going back home, cooking, finishing my homework, and then watching movie. Awesome people are awesome.

p/s: #foreveralone mode

Cubaan Buat Cerpen

It's a long journey. Joys and tears.

Submit my 1st resume to SLB website on June. Dekat sebulan lepas tu dapat e-mail cakap no available position at this moment. Down sekejap. Teringat lagi ada satu malam tu, lepas balik dari kerja, buat kerja gila. Massive job application hit on Jobstreet. Masa tu selagi ada engineer position, tak kisah la apa jenis engineering pun, terus je click kat button apply tu. Sebab nak jadi engineer punya pasal.

Saat paling critical masa Ramadhan. Ada satu malam (hari Khamis) yang dah masuk time buka tapi tak buka2 lagi. Leave office at 9 pm. Balik rumah, sambung balik buat kerja. Boss press nak tengok deck. Tarawikh entah ke mana. Siap pukul 4 pagi. Tidur kejap. Pukul 5 bangun sahur. After subuh gerak pergi office. Ammend balik deck tu. Seriously, that was one hell of moment in my life. Malam tu rasa stress giler nak nangis.

During the weekend, update resume baru and submit resume tu ke SLB website (for the 3rd time I think). Alhamdulillah, on Monday dapat call suruh attend Group Dynamic (1st stage of recruitment process) after raya, on 7th September. I couldn't describe my feeling at that time. Masa tu rasa sangat excited. 2 bulan after 1st resume submission, baru kena panggil pergi Rohas Perkasa. Masa tu terasa macam Allah dengar rintihan hati ini. Aku yakin, kalau ini lah jalan terbaik untuk masa depan aku, aku mintak Allah permudahkan jalan-jalan menuju ke arah tu.

Masa tu start tanya2 orang2 SLB how the recruitment process is. Rupa-rupanya lain orang lain process. I mean stage level. Semuanya depends on recruiter's availability. Since Group Dynamic tu was one week right after raya, aku memang tak enjoy sangat raya haritu. Nervous terlebih. Yes seronok beraya after 4 years being abroad tapi lagi nervous pasal aku punya interview tu. Dah la dengan on-going project yang aku tengah work-on time tu. Agak la serabut nya kepala aku time raya tu.

Kalau siapa2 nak tahu details pasal interview process boleh la tanya. Panjang kalau nak cerita. Tapi sepanjang 1st time aku pergi Rohas untuk interview sampai la aku dapat offer letter, memang banyak benda yang jadi yang buat aku fikir memang setiap benda ni Allah dah aturkan elok2 dan ada hikmah di sebaliknya.

Overall, ada 5 stages recruitment process untuk SLB ni (again number of stages untuk semua orang tak sama).

1st stage which is Group Dynamic. Dapat call dalam bulan puasa. Memang masa tu tengah mengharap sangat. Jadi antara orang2 last keluar office. Berbuka dalam KTM. Malam2 penat sampai nak pergi tarawikh pun dah tak larat. Kadang2 gagahkan jugak la nak pergi eventho time solat kepala dah laloq giler. Time dapat call tu, terasa macam happy giler like the best Hari Raya present ever. Dalam hati aku "Allah dengar doa aku dan kalau ni betul2 path yang aku patut ambil, I would just go for it". Aku ambil cuti 2 hari semata-mata nak prepare. Alhamdulillah passed stage tu. Kalau tanya orang2 SLB yang pernah went through this Group Dynamic, mesti diorang akan cakap stage ni la yang paling susah among other stages. Kena bantai macam dalam The Apprentice tu. Dah la diorang announce nama2 yang layak untuk ke next stage right after habis. Memang cuak giler kot time tu. Tawakal je minta2 nama kena sebut.

Next stage is one-to-one interview dengan HR Manager. Time ni dah ok sikit nervous tu. Memang masa tunggu kat lobby tu shaking jugak tapi bila tengah interview, everything went well. Mungkin tips masa interview tu aku boleh share dalam entry lain. All I can say is you just need to be yourself, be confident, and don't show any hesitation. Kalau untuk SLB, one important reminder: Don't ever talk about money. They hate it. You know they gonna pay you a lot later on. So just keep the figures to yourself.


Dalam masa tengah tunggu result for this stage, aku ada phone interview dengan Shell. I guess I was screwed at that time. Dah la time aku main set je date and time. Orang Shell tu call time aku tengah ada group discussion. Memang screwed up giler la. Dah ada instinct yang aku tak akan pass pun phone interview ni. Instinct aku betul. The next day terus dapat e-mail cakap aku unsuccessful to the Shell Recruitment Day. Agak sedih tapi aku rasa hikmahnya ialah benda tu ajar aku supaya jangan jadi tamak dan focus dengan apa yang aku tengah ada dulu. Yup at that time, I was working on this one major project in SPAD. So maybe aku just kena focus dekat project tu dulu. Jangan gopoh sangat nak kejar semua benda.

3rd and 4th time aku pergi Rohas untuk next stage interview with the respective segment manager. 1st segment yang aku pergi was Dynamic Pressure Measurement (DPM), a new segment in SLB. Interview pukul 9. Aku dah bagitau boss aku ada hal pagi tu. So masuk lambat sikit. Aku keluar awal dari rumah, pergi office dulu pukul 8.30 baru keluar dari office. Sekali boleh pulak si LRT rosak. Bayangkan dari KL Sentral
ke KLCC, kat each station in between dia stop lama giler. Sampai ramai giler keluar. Memang dugaan. Sampai2 je memang manager mat saleh ni tengah tunggu aku. Crap. Lepas tu aku tak ingat berapa lama aku kena tunggu until diroang panggil untuk the next segment interview pulak. Kali ni segment Drilling and Measurement (DNM).

Actually segment ni la yang aku mintak dengan HR Manager. Dia tanya aku "Why do you choose DNM". Aku cakap "I think being a driller is pretty cool". Ok cakap pasal DNM punya segment interview ni, aku memang takde prepare apa2 sebab memang the call was so sudden dan esoknya aku terus kena pergi Rohas. Dah la masa tu aku tengah busy. Balik rumah malam before nak interview tu pun sambung buat kerja lagi sebab esok tu ada important meeting awal2 pagi. Interview tu pukul 9 pagi so aku rasa ok je kalau pagi tu aku lari kejap ke KLCC. MUla2 aku tak tau la yang boss dah assigned aku wakilkan dia dalam meeting tu. Pagi2 tu aku datang awal office buka2 e-mail baru terbaca e-mail dari boss. Ok masa tu dah rasa screwed up. Aku dah la tak bagitau dia aku kena pergi Rohas. Nak tak nak terpaksa la buat kerja gila. Aku mintak tolong colleauge yang lain wakilkan aku pulak. Nasib baik boss kata OK.

Part paling menyayat hati dalam hidup ialah bila kereta sendiri yang baru berusia 2 bulan involved in accident. Kereta depan emergency brake, aku pun emergency brake, lori belakang bantai kereta aku, kereta aku bantai kereta depan. So of course la effect kat kereta aku paling teruk sebab dah jadi sandwich duduk tengah2. Aku sedih giler time tu. Lagi2 bila orang workshop cakap kereta kena masuk workshop dalam lebih kurang 3-4 minggu. Memang terasa patah kaki. Seminggu terpaksa susahkan ayah aku mintak tolong dia hantarkan pergi lrt station. Weekend memang tak boleh pergi mana2.

Tapi Allah itu Maha Penyayang. Masa aku tengah sedih2 tunggu kereta siap, dapat call yang aku kena pergi Labuan untuk Field Exposure Program (FEP) untuk DNM punya segment. It was like a wake up call for me. Allah uji kita dengan satu ujian, tapi ada benda yang lagi baik menanti. Hebat sungguh perancangan Allah. So maksudnya aku tak payah risau pasal takde kereta seminggu sebab kena pergi Labuan. Yang paling best, balik2 je dari Labuan, orang workshop call cakap kereta dah siap and ready to be picked up. Alhamdulillah.

Ujian before nak pergi Labuan ni bukan setakat tu je. Aku kena pergi Labuan hari Isnin pagi. Malam Jumaat balik kerja macam biasa tapi minggu tu hujan lebat kat Lembah Klang. Since kereta dah takde ni, aku akan balik naik KTM dan turun kat Batu Tiga dan ambil teksi balik rumah. Untuk orang2 Batu Tiga ni diorang memang tahu la yang Batu Tiga ni memang kawasan banjir kalau hujan lebat. Nak dijadikan cerita, Batu Tiga memang banjir teruk malam tu. Kereta tak dapat masuk dan keluar. Taxi service was not available at that night.

Aku mintak ayah aku datang pick up tapi disebabkan hujan, aku kena across federal highway tu through jejantas yang ada tu la. Nak cross jejantas pun dah macam ape. Air dah paras dekat2 lutut. Nasib haritu hari Jumaat. Aku bawa sandal nak pergi solat Jumaat. Kalau tak memang habis la kasut kerja aku. Turun je dari jejantas lalu satu kawasan gelap ni. Ada 2 3 lori park kat tepi jalan. Aku jalan macam biasa je la. Sekali keluar anjing (aku taktau berapa ekor exactly tapi yang aku tau more than two) dari bawah lori tu kejar aku. Aku pun buka langkah seribu. Sandal yang aku pakai aku tanggalkan terus, memang pecut kaw2 nye tak ingat dunia. Aku memang dapat rasa anjing tu dah dekat sangat dengan aku. Tapi ternyata masa tu Ganu lagi laju daripada Usain Bolt. Aku taktau macam mana aku boleh lari laju dengan bag yang ada laptop lagi. Fuhhhh. Memang dugaan.

Hari Ahad tu ada Rugby World Cup Final. New Zealand vs. France. My Allblacks won 8-7. It was a tight game dengan Allblacks dah guna their 4th Flyhalf. At that time, I knew that it was a good sign for my Labuan trip since my all time favorite rugby team won the World Cup at their own mother soil.

I went to Labuan with two other guys. Dah macam penentuan hidup dan mati bila dah sampai Labuan ni. Orang selalu cakap kalau interview SLB, dah sampai Labuan or Kemaman tu, dah kira secured. The reality is, it is not the case. You're almost there, but the chances to fall down are still there. Apa yang aku boleh cakap, seminggu aku kat Labuan ni, aku consider diri aku "under-dog" la. To be honest, I felt like a noob who know shit about oil and gas.

Kawan aku yang lagi 2 orang tu memang ada advantage sebab diorang tengah kerja dengan company oil and gas. Tapi memang betul aku rasa ternganga je 1st time bila kat sana. Sembang2 term oil and gas. Alhamdulillah everything went well. FEP trip was awesome. People are very nice and helpful. Aku try jadi se-humble mungkin sebab memang aku takde basic oil and gas langsung. Memang lah aku ada Mechanical Engineering background, tapi that is so general plus ME major in Vanderbilt doesn't require specialization in any ME field. Apa yang aku ada masa pergi Labuan tu just the engineering background and basic knowledge on what Drilling and Measurement is all about. Being under-dog is a bliss to self-motivate yourself.

Hampir 2 minggu after balik dari Labuan, aku pun dapat la the most awaiting call. I have accepted by SLB. ALHAMDULILLAH. Syukur sangat2. Allah permudahkan jalan-jalan aku untuk menuju goal yang aku dah set. Memang aku ada perancangan sendiri untuk apa yang aku nak jadi tapi benarlah yang tiada siapa mampu lawan perancangan Allah. Semuanya adalah Qada' dan Qadar. Allah uji kita ikut kemampuan kita.

Janji Allah itu pasti. 

" Oleh itu, maka (tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan. (Sekali lagi ditegaskan): bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan." Al-Insyirah, ayat 5 - 6.

"Every cloud has a silver lining"

"Every cloud has a silver lining" atau terjemahannya secara mudah "Setiap yang berlaku itu pasti ada hikmahnya". Ok time to update. Banyak sangat benda nak update since the last entry. Cara paling ringkas yang aku boleh conclude or simplify apa yang aku lalui for the last 6 months: Graduate from college, getting job, and start working life. Tapi sebenarnya banyak lagi benda yang berlaku in between yang buatkan aku berfikir hebatnya perancangan Allah itu nak dibandingkan dengan perancangan manusia ni yang banyak sangat flaws.

Sebenarnya memang nak tulis pasal benda ni lama dah tapi bila dah terbaca entry dari satu blog ni, memang dah sampai masa kena tulis jugak. Tak pernah kenal orang yang tulis blog ni tapi memang writing dia dekat sangat dengan aku mungkin sebab aku go through benda yang sama macam dia. The only difference is he's married and bless with a son. Tu yang buatkan aku lagi suka baca blog dia sebab terasa lebih warna-warni hidup dia tu.

Apa dia yang "Every cloud has a silver lining" ni? Ya memang selama ini, dari kita lahir sampailah ke hari ini semua yang berlaku itu merupakan perancangan dari Allah s.w.t dan pasti ada hikmahnya. Cuma lately aku insan yang selalu pelupa ni baru sedar dan nampak benda-benda yang terjadi tu memang ada hikmahnya. Cuma kita ni boleh berfikir dan mungkin guess kenapa benda itu jadi. All the reasons behind it, Allah knows best. 


To make it simple, lets focus on "Job and Life". Banyak sangat kalau nak tulis just dalam satu entry. Aku taknak tulis pasal apa yang aku buat. Aku nak tulis pasal benda-benda yang jadi, yang baut aku terfikir kerdilnya aku sebagai manusia.

Story line: Graduate from Vandy, get a job at Suruhanjaya Pengangkutan Awam Darat (SPAD), started working life in June 2011 (just few weeks after returning to Malaysia), some interview calls in between, and now is about to leave SPAD.

Antara benda-benda yang aku boleh relate dengan apa yang aku lalui for the past six months:

1. Dalam batch Vandy'11 aku rasa2 aku orang paling awal start kerja, 22nd June 2011 (eh ke ada yang lain lagi awal, taktau la pulak). Advantage nya aku cepat belajar cari duit sendiri based on kerja yang aku buat. Disadvantage nya aku punya relaxing and chilling time after graduate tu kurang lah dari orang lain. All this while, aku rasa aku susah nak ada uban, tapi after start kerja, dah ada orang tegur nampak aku ada uban. Ooo man.
2. Yup, kerja 1st aku ni bukanlah kerja yang aku aim untuk buat dan aku pun dah cakap benda tu kat boss from the 1st day kerja dan dia cakap dia ok. "Choose wisely what do you wanna do, but as long as you're here, just give your best"
3. Aku ada dapat banyak interview calls tapi mostly datang dari bank or audit company. Aku memang terpaksa tolak awal2 la kan sebab aku taknak la take risk buat benda yang aku tak suka dan nampak macam desperate sangat nak kerja. Aku rasa budak2 batch yang lain pun mesti ada dapat call tu sebab Talentcorp yang distribute resume kitorang.
4. Aku pun dah tak boleh nak recall dah berapa banyak resume aku submit ke engineering-based company. Banyak sangat tapi yang kena panggil untuk interview memang boleh kira dengan jari. Ada satu hari tu aku dapat interview call untuk satu oil and gas consultant company ni. Quite famous and big company. Masa pergi interview, ada sorang HR personnel dengan Mechanical Engineering Department punya manager. This HR lady was nice to me. Sembang2 dengan dia sementara tunggu manager ni. So bila manager ni sampai je, dia tanya nama aku, university mana, major apa, and scholar apa. And then dia terus cakap "Ok I don't wanna waste my time. This position is for the non-JPA-scholar". Aku faham intention dia tapi at least interview la aku dulu. Baru la aku tak down sangat.
5. Start dari situ, buat aku sedar yang Allah ada perancangan yang lagi hebat untuk aku. Perancangan yang aku sendiri tak jangka. Apa yang aku boleh kata, everytime aku submit resume tapi takda feedback or resume kena reject or tak pass interview aku yakin tempat tu bukanlah rezeki aku. Maybe rezeki aku kat tempat lain. Apa yang aku boleh buat time tu, teruskan berdoa mengharapkan Allah permudahkan urusan aku jika itu memang jalan yang terbaik untuk aku.
6. Kerja kat SPAD is not bad tapi kadang2 ada masa yang terasa macam exhausted giler. Masa tu mula la fikir macam2. Benda yang macam2 tu contohnya jealous bila tengok orang lain dapat kerja best and tertanya2 bila la nak dapat kerja yang best2 macam diorang tu. Aku manusia biasa. Aku pun ada masa yang rasa down giler dengan job hunting ni. Terasa macam tak laku. Ok ada unsur2 tak bersyukur kat situ. Astaghfirullahalazim.
7. Aku start hantar resume to Schlumberger dalam bulan June. Pernah kena reject sekali. Dapat e-mail cakap "there is no suitable position for you at this moment". Aku update balik resume and then hantar sekali lagi. Recruitment process Schlumberger seems taking forever for me. Ok aku nak tulis another entry just untuk ni. Bukan nak show off tapi sebab macam2 benda jadi in between.
8. Alhamdulillah sekarang impian jadi kenyataan. Walaupun tak start lagi apa impian itu tapi terasa lega la sikit. Sebab kita yang lalui benda tu dan rasa susah payah dia. Tu yang buatkan kita rasa bersyukur sangat2.

Kesimpulannya:

Yakinlah dengan pertolongan Allah. Macam Maher Zain selalu cakap "Because Allah is always by your side, insyaAllah". Manusia mampu merancang tetapi perancangan Allah itu Maha Hebat. Dia tahu apa yang kita tak tahu. Kadang2 kita rasa rezeki kita kat tempat tu, tapi sebenarnya tidak. Allah tahu mana yang terbaik untuk kita sebab tu orang cakap "Good things come to those who wait". At the end of the day, "every cloud has a silver lining"

Randomness of The Day

You went to laundry with four socks (2 pairs) and bunch of other t-shirts and pants.

After finishing the laundry, there were only 3 socks left.

You were so pissed off because this was not the first time it happened that way.

Maybe it's hidden somewhere between the t-shirts or pants.

You decided to go back to your room.

On the way back to your room, you found a sock (just a sock, not in pair) on the floor.

"Don't throw your sock everywhere you *$^&!# idiot"..assuming that someone likes to throw their socks everywhere.

Continued the journey to your room.

Sat down in front of the laptop checking e-mail, Facebook, and Twitter.

Suddenly realized that the sock you found on the floor is yours.

NOW YOU KNOW WHY YOU ALWAYS LEFT WITH THREE SOCKS.

p/s: my life is average =)

Story of a man

22 years of tenure time serving as a Prime Minister is not a short time period. Even me myself is not a 22-years old guy yet. Many kids are grown up during his tenure and I'm not the exception. Here, I'm not talking about his biography. How can you summarize this guy's biography in just one entry. It might take a whole blog or even bunch of books to come into details about him

I am now looking into his new launched book "A Doctor in The House: The Memoirs of Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad". I am gonna get one when I return home. It contains his "down to the memory lane" stories. From the reviews and critics, the best part of this book comes from Chapter 53: Anwar's Challenge. I am really looking into this book. There are many things to get to know, to learn, and to seek for the truth.

One thing that makes me admire this old guy. He is man of his words. I am not a politician but politics is one of my interest. My family background could be one of the contribution to this interest. It makes me realize that being a politician is hard. I don't know how they can keep smiling after all the hates towards them. This old guy really teach me how strong he could be at his age. So much things to learn. Too many lessons to follow. At certain points, you were wrong but I admire your consistency in everything you say. The most memorable one is "I may have made many mistakes, but removing Anwar was not one of them".

p/s: updating my current wish-list. Meet Che Det in person. (I know it sounds impossible)

Thank you

These past few days turn to be happy and memorable days for me. I watch Grey's Anatomy series a lot. I know how hurtful Derek Shepherd is when knowing that Meredith Grey is having Alzheimer. What this neurosurgeon  afraid of is when he wakes up and find out that Meredith doesn't know him anymore. Before I become a person who easily forget his sweet memories, let me write it here "Thank you so much for all this happiness. I just can't recall when is the last time I put the true smile on my face. You're my sunshine. Definitely you're."


p/s: The day is getting warmer. The sun is up. Everyone is happy and I'm a happy man.

Rumah, Jiran, Tetamu

Menemui jiran2 dan tetamu2 yang dikasihi,

Blog ni macam rumah. Orang yang tulis blog diandaikan macam tuan rumah. Reader & orang yang bagi comment pulak tetamu. So, everytime tetamu datang rumah kita, tuan rumah kena greet, sambut, n layan diorang. Kalau ada orang tanya benda2 kat dalam rumah, tuan rumah kena jawab. Apa2 yang jadi dalam rumah, tuan rumah kena sedia la nak ambil full responsibility.

Kadang-kadang tuan rumah buat silap. Maklum la dia pun manusia biasa. Tuan rumah membebel tak tentu hala, bercerita pasal benda2 yang tak patut dicerita pasal jiran2 dia ke, emo tak tentu pasal, rasa happy, sedih, sakit hati, marah. Benda2 macam tu yang tunjukkan yang tuan rumah tu manusia normal. Memiliki rumah pada usia muda bukan senang. Tuan rumah mesti nak buat apa2 je yang dia suka. Sampai satu ketika ada benda yang tuan rumah tu buat nampak sangat kurang matang. Dia pun sedar benda tu. Action dia tu kadang2 buat situation jadi tegang, tense, orang jadi masam2 muka, gaduh sama sendiri. Tapi masam2 muka ni tak best. So tuan rumah wajib buat apa yang patut untuk benda2 tu jadi clear. So that semua orang akan jadi normal, hidup gembira.

Tuan rumah ada juga yang degil. Nak simpan benda2 lama & tak best dalam rumah yang buat tetamu dia tak suka. Taknak buang. Tapi last2 dia pun sedar yang kalau dia buang benda2 tak best tu baru la selesa sikit keadaan. Space pun jadi lapang. Selalunya orang minta maaf time hari raya. Tapi sebenarnya tak payah tunggu raya pun takpe. Manusia kan pelupa. Kena always nak ingatkan.

So kat sini tuan rumah nak minta maaf banyak2 pasal benda2 tak best yang tuan rumah dah timbulkan. Tuan rumah pun sometimes is having hard time. Dia tak boleh nak handle semua benda dalam satu masa. Mungkin dia ada physical ability tapi bukan mental strength. Ada benda yang tuan rumah kena deal dengan cara yang lebih diplomatic. Ego n selfish brings him nowhere.

Kita kan profesional. Apa yang jadi dalam rumah, settle dalam rumah. Kat luar rumah, tuan rumah, jiran, tetamu tu maybe ada yang colleague, ada yang main satu team bola ke, volley ke, game ape2 la, satu gang stalk fb ke, stalk rumah orang lain ke, haa tu semua tunjukkan yang kita ni pro. Yang penting kat luar maintain senyum. Takde masalah.

Bila situation pun dah stabil, baru la hati senang. Macam kat Egypt tu. Nangis2 diorang raikan kemenangan revolusi rakyat. Untuk yang ni, more to revolusi bersama. Collective opinion and decision does matter.

Akhir kata, tuan rumah memang rasa dah tak macho sebab dah buat silap, tapi lagi tak macho la kan kalau tuan rumah tak minta maaf. Tuan rumah clear, jiran clear, tetamu pun clear. Settle.

Salam sayang,
Abg tuan rumah


p/s: haa raya nanti jemput la datang rumah eh =)

HOW?

Let's put all this sick, confusing, tiring, and exhausting game to an end. But HOW? Nothing seems to be alright at the moment. Chaotic, lost-tempered, bashing each other - it's just not the way it should be. There should be an end. Definitely it is. Time heals everything but for some reasons it is not. Stuck in the middle between your past and your future sucks. To bare with the pain, suffering, and low-self esteem is not an easy task. "Who do you think you are? Running around leaving scars."




p/s: I wish my middle life crisis doesn't come at this very early age.

Random2

1. Bila tengok last entry title "P/S: I Love You" macam apa la pulak kan. So nak tulis je la apa2 even merepek pun.

2. Syaf Kun suruh tulis something yg panjang2 sikit. Baru best nak baca dia kata. Lagi best kalau pasal story hot2 ni. Sorry Syaf. Gua takde story hot2 nak citer. Yang ade semua lame, gloomy, heartbroken, full of sadness. Tak macam story org lain. So tak best nak bawak masuk blog. Gua nak tulis yang happy2 jer. Hehehehe.

3. Baru habis tengok filem "Aku Masih Dara". Mungkin another entry untuk review pasal filem ni. Typical, tapi aku suka watak Ustaz Firdaus. Nama dah sama ngan aku tapi character memang langit dan bumi la kan. Mungkin sebab Ashraf Muslim yg bawak character tu. Nampak redup je muka dia. Dia pun sekarang dengar cerita dah jadi staff kat Darus Syifa'. Alhamdulillah. Kuasa Tuhan.

4. Dapat skype ngan si kecik. Semalam pun ada ym2 dia. Thank you so much for the advices si kecik. When I feel like everyone is against me, I believe I still have my best supporter which is you. Sometimes, all we need is just someone asking, "Are you ok?". That's it. Aku doakan kau dapat pergi umrah tu.

5. Baru habis jugak tengok Badminton - Final Malaysian Open. Dato' Lee Chong Wei vs. Taufik Hidayat. Game yang biasa. Kemenangan yang boleh consider tak susah kot untuk LCW. Maybe sebab Taufik dah tak se-agresif dulu. Aku prefer match LCW dengan Lin Dan. Memang stimulate la korang punya adrenaline eventho kadang2 Lin Dan menang dengan margin yang besar, tapi game yang ada energy. Anyway, congratulations to Dato' LCW and Dato' Misbun Sidek. Despite the resignation rumors, you guys totally made us proud as a Malaysian.

6. Lirik lagu of this week yang duk pusing2 kat kepala aku, terngiang2 kat telinga aku "Buat apa dicerita, bahagia kita rasa, biar tak dipercaya, peduli orang kata".

p/s: We can't hold two persons at one time.

P/S: I Love You

Ok benda ni dah lama tapi saja2 nak share.

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Zizan Nin reply tweet gua beb. Kantoi dia pun layan jiwang gak. Kah3. Btw movie ni cool la. Macam mana seorang wife yang tak boleh nak move on after husband dia meninggal. After husband dia meninggal pun dia still dapat surat2 dari husband dia. Ok cara husband dia tackle dia pun memang sweet la (boleh bla la org kata). Lepas tu apa lagi..haa Ireland is a beautiful country (from this movie's setting).

Damn. Aku banyak sangat tengok movie jiwang ke apa? Tapi aku banyak tengok movie lain (horror, comedy, sci-fi, etc). Aku pun banyak gak amik tau pasal politik semasa sekarang ni. So maybe movie jiwang macam ni untuk balance la kot kan.

p/s: During my Direct Energy Conversion class, my prof. (Dr. Alvin Strauss) asked the class, "What kind of movie are you guys watching?" Class: *silence*

Feliz Navidad

Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Prospero Año y Felicidad.

Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Prospero Año y Felicidad.

I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas
From the bottom of my heart.

Have you guys listen to this song? It's cheerful right? Anyway don't get me wrong. If someone asks me why love this song and not the Eid songs or any other nasyeed songs, my answer is I love Eid songs, I love nasyeed songs, and I love this song as well. Can we wish any other religions for their celebration? Well the answer is here.

This video is awesome because:

1. I am an engineer (soon to be InsyaAllah), I enjoy this kind of technology. These North Point's iBand guys make it to be entertaining.

2. I am an Iphone user and I think the apps they're using are really cool. I've downloaded some of them into my Iphone.

3. The combination of the great technology, great video, great song, and great band makes me repeat this video for thousand times on YouTube. I love the beginning part when the guy play the Bebot and the part when the singer suddenly came out with a big grin on his face.

4. They play this "imaginary instruments" with passion just like they're playing the real instruments. I like it.


p/s: "Say, “0 ye disbelievers!  I worship not as you worship, Nor do you worship as I worship. Nor do I worship those that you worship, Nor do you worship Him Whom I worship. For you your religion, and for me my religion." (Surah Al-Kafirun: verse 3-7)

I'm thinking too much

It's 4.25 am and I should already sleep at this time but my beloved dreamcatcher doesn't work tonight. It keeps giving me bad dreams recently. I'm thinking too much. I'm thinking too much about everything. I hate uncertainty. Being uncertain doesn't makes you to be any better. But thanks God one of my friends says " life is a box full of chocolates. You'll never know what you're gonna get". So I'm hoping and praying to get through this with ease and bless. Allah knows best. Somehow I wanna get rid all of these unnecessary things but they keep crossing my mind.

Hey Sin Chan. I wanna be like you. Carefree. Live happily with your dad and mum, Himawari and Shiro.

My life is getting tough and complicated. I wanna make it simple. Just like you. Please share your happiness with me

It's pathetic to talk to a blog that can't even respond to your words at this hour. I wish someone says this to me "I'm not telling you to talk to me. I'm telling you to talk to someone." It's a line from Grey's Anatomy. Well, a drama will always be a drama. It wouldn't happen in the real life. Anyway life is too short to be in mess and life is to short to be alone. Let's enjoy the life to the fullest while it still last. Family and friends. At least we have them.

I miss you guys. I'm too tired for always being away from home

This is what we call happiness

p/s: I wonder how the cheerleaders could put big smile on their faces even though their team is left behind.